Maybe I'm just lame. But I could care less that 2010 is over. Whats the difference between celebrating a new year and a new month? A yearly mark just gives us an excuse to create all of these false goals and resolutions that no one will ever complete. Mine was to eat healthier. I mark that I gave up today, January 1st, after my second Capri Sun..gummy worms..and ice cream. I'm not one for any sort of commitment, long term project, or really anything that requires effort for a continual amount of time. Wow. I'll make a horrible girlfriend.
Looking back I don't think I did anything to make 2010 a very special year, or nothing too memorable happened. Let's see: 8th grade ended. That was a great year though. I loved 8th grade. Probably one of the best school year experience so far. Then came summer. That's all become a jumbled mess. It didn't seem that great when school rolled around, but looking back, day by day it was pretty fun. Vermont, concert, Abby's house, pool with Abby, my house with Abby...I'd have to say it was probably one of the best summers I've ever had. I'm that kid that will always be waiting for that one extraordinary summer, better than all the others, but nothing will ever seem good enough. Hmm. I seem to be contradicting my earlier statement. In my mind, the year overall was just another year to live..but month by month it was fun.
And here it is. 2011. This shit just got real. Who knows what will happen. Maybe I'll finally get it together and realize I need to put more effort into school. Maybe as I grow older, I'll discover more about myself, and what I want to do with my life. Or just maybe, our dream of a magical flying pocket Brendon Urie will finally come true. Someone needs to photoshop this up for us.
Complete irrelevancy..I got a camera for Christmas. Think Polaroid. Except it's a Fujifilm. The picture comes out immediately on film. It's pretty fun, and a little part of me has always liked photography. I like the effect that instant cameras have on the picture. Photography is just a cool thing in general. I even like the word. Which is why, I've decided, while browsing Sears while the parents bought a new tv, I want a camera. Preferably a Canon. With a telephoto zoom lens. And wide angle lens. But just a standard zoom lens would be great..
Besides for photography, I'm also into *5th grade moment* people being a copycat. I love when something of your own immediately becomes an interest of someone who wants it all. You have it, and they don't, so by them having what was yours originally..it immediately makes them a better person then right? Because that is some fucked up logic you have there. And I'm not talking about inspiration. You build yourself based off of others, but ultimately, you are your own person in the end. It just takes a long time to figure all of yourself out. And then it's just all #eggsandbacon.
"...for strange effects and extraordinary combinations we must go to life itself, which is always far more daring than any effort of the imagination."
The wonderful words of Sherlock Holmes. Or Arthur Conan Doyle. Whichever way you look at it.
'I wanna scream I love you from the top of my lungs but I'm afraid that someone else will hear me/you can only blame your problems on the world for so long before it all becomes the same old song.'
'We're the new face of failure/prettier and younger but not any better off/bulletproof loneliness at best'.
Death is... by Sebastian E.
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The funny part about the ironic, oh-so-perfect Pete Wentz comments, is that at the end of "I'm Like a Lawyer..." He comes to the conclusion that 'The best way to make it through with hearts and wrists in tact is to realize that 2/3 ain't bad.' Not to butt into your life, but maybe that's what you learned? You didn't have an epic year or meet amazing people, but maybe that's okay. Philosophy vs. teenage angst...teenage angst always wins.
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