We'll Carry On

I've failed to mention my vacation, the one right before school had started. Not to bore you with all the minor details though. It was definitely fun, great to see everyone, but also exhausting. Mentally and physically. There's only so much family I can handle at once, and everyone crammed into a small house, I was going a little stir crazy. But getting to see the cousin was worth it, it seems that even with months apart at a time, we seem to snap right back into it. There are some things you can do with a cousin that you can't even do with you best of friends. Excuse me, a little summer reminiscing here.

I think I was born lacking the talent to take a step back and take a look at the bigger picture. I guess you could call it tunnel vision. It's just that I feel like so much is happening in my life right now, that it can kind of become overwhelming and when whatever I'm dealing with at the moment is over, I look back and say "What just happened? And where the fuck was my mind?" But it also seems that day by day my life is so unnaturally boring...? It's just the fact that sometimes you have this overwhelming of feelings and god I'm completely butchering my attempt to describe what's been happening. Why don't I just start lying: Right now my life is all puppies and rainbows and sunshine!

Meh. I'm being eaten by the homework monster. It's slowly chewing me up, making each hour of geometry seem much more monstrous. My utter procrastination problem never helps either. I think my technology is trying to make me fail highschool. Or at least that's my excuse.

In other news, people need to learn how to shut. the. hell. up. Yeah, thanks for telling me that, why don't you just walk on my emotions a little bit more? Just stomp them into the dirt, that's cool, as long as you told me what you thought I needed to know. If you know how I feel, then why are you telling me this? Thanks for letting me know you could care less.

I'd like to believe that there is a difference between telling something to someone that you know will hurt them, and putting your foot in your mouth. Because trust me, I'm quite capable of the latter. As my friends know, I could write a book about how not to say the things I say, and put your foot in your mouth. See I have this problem, where I tend to say things before I think about them...pretty much everyday. Either that or I say something that sounded SO much better in my head and it just came out wrong. My uncontainable mouth has led me to much embarrassment, I've hurt people I never meant to hurt, and much more drama then necessary. Combine that with the fact that I'm not always the best at keeping secrets and it's a wonder I still have friends. But to my friends who put up with me, I love you. Just saying.

I couldn't help it. I had to post this song. My Chemical Romance - Na Na Na